Today I Almost Cried

Today I feel I should have been doing something...anything. I think as the holidays approach I tend to go into that typical single, alone thing. I really feel like spending Thanksgiving alone in my p.j.s all day eating junk food and watching television. When I tell others this plan, they say outgoing people like me don't spend holidays alone. I hate to tell them that they are wrong..but they are wrong. As a woman in my thirties, I find that I am now a rare breed living in a world where old conventions still stand. I have no children, no good dating prospects so far, and live alone. With that, the rule of the world right now is that i'm supposed to already have two or three kids, dating a multitude of men, and living in a big house while driving the fancy car. The reality is i'm just a good girl in a world where men don't want good girls anymore. Nothing can be simple. Everything has to be complex. What's a girl like me to do??? Well, as you can see...be alone typing on a blog in my p.j.'s contemplating if I will indeed stay within the confines of my space for a solo Thanksgiving "junk food fest"! Today I kept thinking about that guy I really, really liked and how he would be spending his holiday. Then I slapped myself for even thinking about him! Only go forward Ang! Tomorrow I promise I'll get dressed and go outside.