The Hazy Days of Summer

Heat wave upon us. Headed out the door to feel the heat. Have to look for two good pairs of trainers. I better get going.

PISSED

So someone really managed to piss me off today and upset me thoroughly. I am still very upset and have a pain shooting down the left side of my neck. It all stems from an upcoming wedding and an email that I sent out again asking other friends to let me know if they have met any other single people that I could possibly go out with. Long story short, this friend basically made it seem like I'm pathetic and desperate asking other friends to help me meet new people and possibly have a date to the wedding. Simply not true. The fact of the matter is there comes a time when you get tired of going to everybody elses life moments ALONE. Birthday gatherings, weddings, baby showers, funerals, everything. It starts getting really difficult especially when you don't know any of the celebrants friends or family members. When you have done this for YEARS like I have, there comes a point where you would like to have fun at these events. Getting stuck at a table watching couples and groups of friends that you don't know have fun simply isn't fun. But hey...it's just me Angela right? Especially with a wedding...it's only about the couple getting married right? Doesn't really matter if I have a good time or not. I am just a guest.

To me, all one had to do was simply not respond to the email. You either know people to introduce me to or you don't. The funny thing is nobody would have a problem with me meeting a total stranger at a function like a wedding however one would have a problem with friends recommending people that they know and could be a good, new person for me to meet in general. I have worked so hard to open myself up to possibilities and it seems that I get put down for trying to be open. I'm going to get into bed, read the running books I bought as I plan out my training schedule, say my prayers and go to sleep to calm myself down. My joyous moment today was watching the seniors participate in the Dragon Festival. It was good to see so many of them still active and physically, emotionally, and spiritually alive.

Babeland in Brooklyn

Really tired now so just a quick blurb. Today started out kind of rocky. Literally had to tell my dad to stop yelling at me even AFTER proving to him several times that he was not listening and had no reason to be yelling at me but rather I should be yelling at him!

Two guys paid me compliments during my subway commutes throughout the day today... that was a nice pick me up. Some other creepy guy groped me! Yeah..sure...it was an accident...yeah right. These guys must think we women are morons.

Went to the empowerment talk featuring Brenda Blackman. She is so down to Earth. Love that! I didn't get a chance to speak with her but I will ask one of the board members to forward an email to her asking her to tell Mike Gilliam and Vicki I said hello. I use to work with Vicki at 880. They are both really sweet.

Dr's appt went o.k. In the wait and see holding pattern. So Brooklyn is getting even hotter...Babeland , a women's sex boutique store, opened up in Park Slope. Downtown is getting more Manhattanie. Not necessarily a good thing. O.K. more tomorrow.

President Barak Obama

So finally after all these months it's official...Barak Obama will move on to the general election as the Democratic nominee for President of the United States of America! As I was watching parts of his speech from Minnesota tonight, I couldn't help but think about how many people I know who are excited about the possibilities but are NOT registered voters! In this day and age, that is sheer insanity. I tell all of my friends that don't vote that I will not listen to their complaints since their voice doesn't count. Who wants to hear complaints from folks who were too lazy to register and freely go vote? I don't.

Now it's wait and see with Hillary. Hey...that rhymed! LOL. I find it funny that in her speech from NYC tonight, she flat out said that she "won't make any decisions right now". What is there for her to make any decision about?!? Is she waiting for Obama to put her on the running mate ticket or offer her a job when he gets into office? That's mighty arrogant of her isn't it? That sense of entitlement seems to be seeping through. That has always been her downfall. I am pro-woman and I do believe she has to remain tough. However, there comes a time and place to concede defeat. Clinton should have conceded. Personally, I think she has done nothing but hold Obama back from strategizing on how to beat McCain in the general election! Clinton believes that without her strong hold on the Latino vote, Obama can't win. I disagree. At the end of the day it all comes down to voter turnout. There's always time to register and for those who are registered, they can and will get out the vote. Every election is important, this one is magnanimous!

As for McCain has basically had three months to plan. You know what they say...those who fail to plan, plan to fail. McCain has been planning. In his speech tonight, he keeps harping on the concept that Obama keeps citing that if McCain were to win presidency, he (McCain) would in theory be serving Bush Jr's third term. McCain also is harping on the idea that he is well known for his so called bipartisan politics while Obama isn't established yet. Who is McCain fooling. If anything, that political spin could backfire on him. Yes, McCain has been around the block so to speak, however that means he's had more opportunity to get things right...which he hasn't. It is indeed time for change and in my opinion, Obama is that change.

I am worried about his safety. This is still a a very racist nation no matter how "blended" everyone wants to tout America to be. I pray for his safety. Let's see what time brings.

A Good Start

It's going to be a good day for me. I can feel it. Got an email from Miriam. She's so inspiring to me! I hope we get to see one another soon. I would love for her to see my space (as small as it is) just once but I know it's a long journey to get here. I forgot to ask her how Bakti is doing. Time is ticking...I better get going so that i'm not late for work. Will revisit this post once there.

12:01pm...Quite day so far. So nice outside. Miriam gave me a link to what looks like a really good, affordable yoga space I can go to. I'm going to check out a class next week. I am going to work really hard to stick with working out three to five times a week and that means I have to have variety in there so I won't get bored. Still working on finding the swimming lessons. It's crazy that it's so hard to find decent classes in my own neighborhood. So far every place i've researched in Bklyn is too far out of the way. I'm going to look in Manhattan and see what turns up. I'm really trying hard to spend as much time OUTSIDE of my space. I've gotten so use to just going straight home that I feel guilty when summer arrives and i'm not enjoying it to the max. I need to get back into The Artist's Way zone of making a date with myself and doing fun things. I can't let my inner kid die on me! Better go. More later.

The Sunday Wrapup

It was an absolutely fantastic day! Warm and sunny...a good day to drive with the sunroof open. Saturday I spent the day being a girl. Was bored with my hair color which felt very wintry so with a "little box of color" I changed it! LOL. Definitely a more summer look. I'm still debating whether to cut it shorter or continue to grow it out. I'm thinking I will cut it at the end of the month. We'll see. It's a debate since when it's shorter I have to "maintain" it more frequently which means spending money. I'm in a good zone right now where I plan on having my credit cards paid off by the end of August while building back up my emergency fund. I've also been thinking alot about where I will go for my birthday this year. How crazy is that?!? I'm already thinking about the next trip and still haven't put together a scrapbook of the last. LOL. I'm thinking maybe London since it would be offseason, I love the cold, and I wouldn't have to worry about a place to stay since I have family there and am always welcome. We'll see. I'll debate it. OH! Before I forget...one more of the postcards I mailed to myself arrived yesterday! LOL. An entire month after it was mailed. This one came from Argostoli, Greece. That was the day I saw the caves and the blue lake. It was beautiful there. I'm glad the card arrived yesterday...more reminders of the amazing, unique opportunity I experienced.

Today I spent the entire day out on the Island. It was a nice drive out and I stopped in several stores before I made my way to Costco. I was able to get a small gift for Dr. L. She always compliments me on my nailcolors when I come in for my visits. She always says she wishes she could pull them off...and she can! So I got a really nice gift set of nailcolors for her...all trial sizes so she can build up her confidence! LOL. She's a good doctor and I really appreciate the fact that she is going above and beyond to make sure I stay healthy. She's really aggressive in her approach to preventative care. I like that. Stop a problem before one develops if possible. I'm still nervous about this test. Also not looking forward to the pain that comes with it. Just going to block it out. It's like a Nike commercial...just do it. I hope everything works out in my favor.

Didn't hear from anybody this weekend as usual. In some ways that's good since I get more Ang time, but then it's also bad because it makes me feel like nobody cares. I'm going to try to find a swimming class that I can take on Saturdays. It will help to keep myself busy and not focused on this whole weekend depression thing. I have taken my first steps towards my marathon goal. I purchased the training books I need to get me started on the right path and I also asked the guys if I can come in to use the equipment four days a week in-between classes. They said yes which helps me out since right now the membership for classes is financially out of my reach. I hate working out any time other than midday but since that's not possible I'm going to make sure to block off time and just do it...no more excuses. O.K. better go figure out what i'm going to wear tomorrow. I absolutely HATE ironing. I'm sure that everything I pull out of the closet or drawer will require ironing. LOL. Only a few more months before my beloved winter weather comes back. Still haven't caught up with my political commentary have I? And this week should be it...Obama will lock up the Democratic nomination. I wonder if Clinton will finally concede? This will be interesting. BTW...two more people asked me today where I got my "Got Hope" Barak tee shirt. All they have to do is go to his campaign website. DUH! I would love to hear Obama speak in person. I bet it would be just as exciting as hearing Cory Booker speak. He's the next one to watch in terms of political aspirations. O.K really better go. Tomorrow is another day.