Saturday, June 21, 2008

The Story of Angela

Lately I've been thinking about how exactly my life story will end. I'm sure everyone wonders from time to time what will be his or her last moments on Earth and if the way one lived really reflected everything he or she wanted to actually do. Many of my friends would say that I am really living and in a sense, I agree. I have had experiences that everyone shares from medical discoveries to working through a broken heart, growing up, working through unemployment and facing the world each day. I have also had adventures that many will not get to experience such as traveling to a variety of places and spaces and setting goals like running a marathon and writing books and screenplays that will be nominated one day for The Angel Award (that's my very own made up awards ceremony in my head). My story is simple yet many would call it complex. Not in the mood to share my story just yet...to be continued.

Another Saturday. Hot outside. First full day of summer. Welcome Summer! I better get going. Workouts are slow this week. Slow and steady wins the race though right?

Friday, June 20, 2008

Pizza Anyone?

I have this enormous craving for pizza today. Weird since I rarely eat pizza. It's a relatively quiet day here at work which for once I'm happy to see. Woke up again just before 5am with a headache. I feel like I need a nap right now. I did have yet another dream sometime between 6a and 7a. When someone is kissing you in a dream it's always good! Now that's a dream to remember. Ha ha. The interesting thing is I don't know who it was that was kissing me. All I remember is that the overall feeling of the dream was that I was with a boyfriend/ significant other and we were at a music concert. I remember feeling really happy. Good short dream. Met up with Sharon and her girlfriend for dinner the other day. It's always good hanging out with her. She cut off her dreads! She says she'll be locking it again really soon. For now it's ultra short. The style looks good on her too. We ate at a Tapas restaurant. Will the dishes were good...I really needed more to eat! However at the prices per dish, I made sure to order only that which I budgeted for. It didn't help that I had a light lunch. Oh well, what can you do.

OH..before I forget...reached another milestone. My UNDERGRADUATE student loan will be fully paid off in two weeks! Only took many years but that's one bill closed off. Now I get the benefit of starting payments on my GRADUATE loans. LOL. Only 120 payments and it's done. Ha ha. I'm on target for finishing paying off my credit card balance just under 3K and while it's not much, at least I can still get in a few bucks into my IRA. Things are shaping up...ever so slowly but surely.

Totally doing the total clockwatcher thing. Is it 5pm yet? LOL. Need to check in with Lor to see if she wants to go walking on Sunday morning. O.K. better go. Later.

Wednesday, June 18, 2008

Best Sex Yet--part 2

Just finished eating lunch. I must say the seniors here definitely eat a well balanced meal. Not a bad deal for just two bucks! I decided to buy lunch today since the lunch I packed from home last night was pretty boring. Guess what will be for lunch tomorrow? LOL. Today's uneventful meal. Ha ha. Since i'm taking a mini-break from grantwriting now's as perfect a time to catch up slightly (since i'm always behind with this thing...too many thoughts). Yesterday after work I finally got a chance to see Sex and the City...the movie. I must say that since I am a huge fan of the series...my expectations of the movie were high. I enjoyed it very much. For a two and a half hour movie, the writing kept my attention and focus all the way through. There were even times when I almost cried at certain plot points. I didn't but a few of the dozen women in the theater did. The movie did make me think about the question of marriage and what it means. For me, I would still like to get married someday but if I met someone who I knew I could be with forever without actually marrying him would I be happy with that? I'm not sure. To me, marriage reinforces commitment to one another as well as letting everyone around you know that legally, we're committed to our union. However, I also don't necessarily think one needs a government issued document to express unity. It's a tough call. Too much to go into during my break right now. Going back to the movie, the other issue of infidelity and mistakes was also highlighted. My friend Jean and I have many debates about the whole male/female perspectives on cheating. After watching the movie, I have an addendum to my perspective. I still don't believe I could forgive a man who intentionally cheats on me...except if I am not doing my part in addressing the underlying issues in our relationship. Don't want to give away anything in the movie in the off chance that somebody reading this didn't see it yet but would like to however in the movie, I can understand why one guy cheated (once).

Before I forget, what I wanted to say about fathers and daughters is that on the train I saw a dad with his little girl. He was very gentle and dad loving with her. I thought to myself, "how come some dads can't be that way forever?" Needless to say I don't have the most affectionate dad around. As a kid I use to adore my dad. As an adult while he's still my dad, a lot of that childhood adoration has gone away. Like I've said before, there's a book or two in me waiting to get out. I have started writing about the trip with my dad. Been reading back through the journal I kept during the trip. Only fitting that I started writing now considering the WGA just sent me notice that I can't be an active voting member since I haven't sold anything in the past seven years. Basically I'm being deactivated pending selling material. At least my paid dues over the years have helped some other writers out there. O.K. better go. More maybe later.

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

The Best Sex Yet

Even though there were many mixed reviews, I have to tell you I enjoyed Sex and the City...the movie. I took myself out on a solo date and took in the film after work. My eyes are closing now since i'm really tired so I'll tell you all about my take on it tomorrow.

More Weird Dreams

So this time I was in a house where some weird experiments were going on. Every time I ran out to the street and yelled up at neighbors to call the police, they all were scared and ran away. I woke up again just before 5am and couldn't really fall back asleep until about 6:30 or so. I also had that experience where you think you are suffocating under a pillow and can't move a to free yourself to get air. I literally couldn't move for a few moments. Hit the snooze on the alarm about three times. Little sleepy but will wake up fully in a few.

I wish there was somebody around to debate with me on the gay marriage ruling and all the weddings that will be taking place today in California. Marriage of any kind is always worthy of a good debate. Want to also revisit a previous post about fathers and daughters. O.K. better go. More later.

Monday, June 16, 2008

Body Hurts

Does the title give the plotline away? Worked out today. Right ankle slightly stiff. Did get to just over 9 out of 12 reps in the walk/run combo. Started feeling slightly dizzy somewhere around 31:00 minutes. The good news is that I was feeling strong (at least today) thru to the near end of workout although I did walk a little slow coming home. Did get in over 12,000 steps so that's great. Tomorrow I will work on arms. Wednesday is Yoga. Going to throw myself into bed now since I basically woke up at 5am this morning and literally couldn't fall back asleep until about five minutes before I had to get up! LOL. Tomorrow's another day.

OMG

I feel like i'm practically rushing to get out and work out! LOL. I hope I get over there before the next round of rain. Just had my banana smoothie and a piece of turkey bacon. That should hold me over for my 36 minute walk/run...or should I say 24 minutes since that was all I was able to do last week. Ha ha. It's a start. That's why I need a year and a half to get ready...slow starter I am yes indeed! I really don't feel like going but I will. Just do it Ang! I need to start incorporating strength training aside from yoga into the mix. Need to get rid of what I call my "angel wings". I have a couple of halter dresses I want to wear in late summer. Not that I don't wear them now and look good but I can look even better more toned.

I took a really nice warm bath on Saturday night when I was over at my mother's house. I wish I could take a bath every day! So calming for me. Oh...before I forget, started working on another grant proposal today. Cool beans. I think this one will be for 25K although Elize and I have to go over some details to decide what the ask should be. I like the fact that I'm being given the opportunity to write here. O.K. better get myself ready to go in a few minutes. More maybe later.