The Jesse Jackson Incident

It's been a busy and interesting week news-wise as well as personally. First let me say that my shoulders and basically my body is still hurting from Tuesday and yesterday's workout. It literally hurts to lift my arms over my head. I took Advil for the pain which is moderate. So to recap my week on the personal front, good news in terms of leads. Landed a phone interview which has now turned into a face to face interview for next week so that's great. Got a call yesterday about another position and they want me in for an interview so two in one week! It gives me hope that there will be other calls and opportunities. Pray for me. I just paid August's rent and that's it...no more money left. Haven't heard anything from the agency so who knows if another temp assignment will come through before September. I hope so if I don't land a full time gig in the right place. I will remain confident that the right opportunities are in my near future.

On the volunteer front, busy as usual with that also. Ran the meeting the other night and didn't realize how many hats I am wearing on the board. It was only after I read the minutes the next day that I was like "holy cow...they keep me busy" but that's a good thing. I enjoy the work, the group, and the good work we are all trying to do for the organization.

Received an interesting text message from O'Neil the other day. Something about having something to say to me face to face. I sent back a message that he should call me so that we can speak. He never did. I can't say that I'm not surprised because I'm not. That's what he does. I really think he forgets I'm a human being with feelings. They ran deep with him even though I know very little about him and his life. As much as I still care about him, I don't really think he understands how hurtful it is that everything is all about him, on his time. It's kind of like he thinks I have no worries, nothing to do because I'm currently not employed. The truth of the matter is I have a lot to deal with. While I may not share there are tons of things I have to worry about like my aging parents. It bothers me that I am not in a financial position to help them should something major come up yet the burden will fall on me and not my sister to do just that. I worry about being homeless or forced to move in with one of my parents. That would be emotionally devastating to me and I doubt it highly that I would be able to recover if I don't have a stream of income coming in to sustain my already simple life. I worry about medical and dental coverage and not being able to do the usual preventative care routine. I worry sometimes that I will have to continue my life journey alone. I am independent and do many things alone but now I need companionship and love in my life. As much as I have on my mind, I work daily to not let worrying and fear bring me down. Some days are better than others. So...that's some of the stuff going on personally for me.

On the media front...I'm a bit angry not with Jesse Jackson but rather with Fox News! Out of all the media coverage on his off-air pre-interview comments, why has nobody bothered to ask why Fox would air that except for ratings and a salacious story? OMG...have we gotten to an age where you have to watch every single word you say unless you preface that with "this is off the record?" No wonder we look stupid to citizens from other countries. We don't know what to report as news and what to just keep private (news outlets and staff). Even the presidential candidates will criticize their advisers, campaign staff, etc. in the media. What ever happened to working as a team and having a private talk behind the scenes. Too much spin control and lack of human decency nowadays. That's just my opinion. O.K. I better go. Have an afternoon appt. More maybe later.

The Bachelorette

O.K. So it's a bit late so this post of course will be brief but I do have several comments about the ABC program "The Bachelorette". I never watch the show except for the final one and every time I see these final "decision" shows I can't help but think that it comes across so forced and fake. While I'm not saying that two people can't fall in love in a heartbeat, tonight's episode and new pairing just seems so fake to me. I'll explain more in detail tomorrow. I think all this relationship/breakup news (Brinkley and A-Rod) is really telling about our society and in a word, pathetic. The lead story on all news outlets throughout the day and this evening were that of A-Rod's pending divorce and the Brinkley drama. I cannot believe that some news director put those stories as the lead over the attempted rape in Westchester and the fire in Bushwick. Really. More tomorrow.