Fall is Here

So let me start off by apologizing to the dozen or so people I yelled at this morning as I tried to get down the staircase at the subway station. Maybe living in NY with so many rude people is starting to get to me. Why are some folks so selfish as to not move to one side as they leave the station so that others can get into the station? They got to where they wanted to go but don't seem to care if anyone else gets to where they need to go. How rude. I practically had to near knock someone down to get down the bay of steps. Pair that with yelling for the guy standing in front of me to move really made for a New Yorker story. Oh well. Contrary to what those folks may think, I'm actually in a good mood...a great mood in fact. No major headache today or groggy feeling. This morning I did wake up and fall back asleep a couple of times. I think I'm going to go to the health food store to get some Valerian tea. May help with sleeping through the night. I did have this dream, although it may not have been a dream, that I was walking around near the sink and stacking plates back in the cabinet. For all I know I may have truly been sleepwalking. In that same course of action, I remember the lights flickering on and off as well as the clock next to my bed. I do feel like the flickering lights were just a dream but the plate thing may have been actual.

Nomination season starts about now. I'm looking forward to seeing a number of films in the next few weeks. Can't wait. It's officially Fall as of about 15 minutes ago! That means snow will be right around the corner! Can't wait! O.k. gotta go. Busy. will revisit later.

Nobody's Gunna Steal my JOY

I feel really good this morning. My spirit feels happy. My body is functioning well. My mind is free of worry and fear. I feel happy. Going to do a Costco run today so as much as I dislike hauling heavy items up three flights of stairs, I am happy that I have the ability to get there, the money to buy food, and the physical ability to get it into my space that is currently my home.

It was fitting that Joel Olsten was talking about holding on to ones joy (I bounce over to his morning sermon when CBS Sunday Morning is in commercials). Over the last ten days there have been many negative people around me (especially in this building) who have been trying to steal my joy. I am thankful that I have not let them and never will. It is truly pathetic that grown people will literally wait and bank on someone elses death to profit. In this case it would appear that the managing agent (aka my ex) is waiting for his grandfather to die in the hopes of inheriting the building. I remember him telling me years ago that if he had his way he would kick all tenants out. How stupid is that?!? You would kick out paying, quiet, law abiding tenants who are subsidizing your living just because? How dumb. I'm glad I broke up with him. He still can't look me in the eyes because he knows he messed up. Oh well, who am I to judge. I'm not God.

Anyway, better log off. More later when I get back.