Weekends Suck and so does Valentine's Day

Does the title give away my feelings? I should say that I don't hate Valentines Day but I do hate that people have made it a couples thing. Makes me feel extra alone. Oh well...what can you do except cry it out and keep it moving. Overall a pretty depressing day as are all weekends. I always wonder what it would be like if I died. Would anyone have time to attend my funeral or even send a card or flowers? In reality weekends to me are exactly like death. I don't hear from anyone and I could literally die and nobody would even know it until someone runs the contacts in my telephone that never rings. Makes me sad but I still don't feel hopeless. Just alone.

Since the last post, I was fired this past Monday...again. Who would have ever thought that in this lifetime people would want to keep firing me?!? The funny thing is it has nothing to do with my work performance but rather their personal dislike for me. In just about every working environment I've been in, I would have to change everything about me just to fit in. Basically I would have to be a follower to succeed. Guess I'll never succeed if that's what's required. I march to the beat of my own drum. Soon I probably won't even have sticks to bang my drum. Will probably be homeless in a couple of months. Again, funny things is nobody will know. I'll just "disappear". Oh well. Provides for another chapter in my autobiography. Since no man could ever possibly love me I guess I'll just be a hermit too. Really sucks. Always thought somebody would be neurotic enough to love neurotic me. Goes back to what I have always said...I'm the defective pot without a lid. I know I shouldn't be putting stuff like this out into the universe but it's just how I feel. My "friends" just don't get how lonely it is for me. Many of them will never "get" me anyway...they are all too busy. Hell...I can't even get a guy to buy me a cup of hot chocolate. Well..I'm going to make myself another cup of hot chocolate and go read a book. Maybe more tomorrow. Happy couples day to all from the single Brooklyn girl.