Boring Weekends Go Away

Woke up with this nagging sore throat again. I don't feel sick or anything just slightly tired. Looks like rain off and on this weekend especially into tomorrow morning. Lori and I were supposed to go walking at the park again but looks like that's out this weekend. Will have to make one of the weekday workouts a long walk. I think Monday would be good since it will be cool outside. Good to walk in the morning, then during lunch, and then the long walk in the evening. I still can't believe that the other day I walked over 16,000 steps in one day. Haven't done that since last year's big trip. I walked alot on that trip and even lost a little weight. Who would think you could lose weight on a cruise but you can! LOL. I've been thinking about where I want to go at year's end. Paris is still popping into my head. I hope I can make this happen financially. Still trying to figure out how to increase my grantwriting skills so that I can freelance that part of me out also. Still have to figure out how to pick up again with my student loan since every day back in deferment means more interest accruing. The gov't is the biggest loan shark going. LOL. Oh well, what can you do. I am still waiting to read more about their new initiative to discharge parts of student loans for time served in the nonprofit sector. I definitely qualify and that would help tremendously. With the loan gone I can maybe focus on owning my own space. That, like traveling, would bring me great joy and happiness.

Didn't and won't get a chance to get back to the previous post since I'm on my way out the door in a few minutes. I know I keep saying it but I need to get out more and find more fun, solitary, affordable things to do. Good news is summer is right around the corner so there will be tons more of free stuff to do. Downside is all of this free stuff, like so many other things, are more fun enjoyed with others. Like I said I enjoy being alone but it really sucks sometimes. Oh well. No use complaining about it. I'll be dead soon enough and then I won't have to think about it anymore. I better go. Laundry won't do itself. More maybe tomorrow night.

More Snow in the Forecast

No time right now since I'm three minutes out the door but I had to leave myself a marker otherwise I'll forget. Had another snow dream. This time there was only about an inch or so on the ground and I was in a sea of houses...like I was looking for a particular address. At one point I was having a conversation with a director of an AIDS nonprofit (can't remember the name he said) but I remember he was with two little boys about seven and maybe three. I remember not repeating back the name in front of the boys. More to this dream but I gotta go. Will revisit post later.

A Dog of A Day

Of all the news stories that I saw today the one that stood out the most was about an injured dog on the Major Deegan. One dog was hit by a car and lay in the road injured, another dog stood guard protecting the injured...so much so that he wouldn't let rescuers approach for a good while. Wow! Just amazing what four legged animals can remind us humans. Wish people would be protective. More kind and loving.

Today was a pretty good day. Just slightly sore but slept really good last night. Was beat. Another weekend approaches already. Going to try and get in a class tomorrow. Added another walker to my group. More motivation. Perfect.

Had a crazy dream early this morning. It's late now. will share tomorrow since it's late and I'm tired. Better go to sleep.

16,791 Steps

Well...I thought I would have time today to get back to my earlier post but I didn't. Whew...what a day. I make it point to be in constant motion when possible and boy did those steps add up! According to my pedometer I walked the equivalent of 7.81 miles today. Holy cow! The goal obviously is to get that distance (and more) consecutively in the weeks leading up to the race. I walked to the office which is uphill. It seemed like everyone wanted to walk with me today. Who knew I was so cool? LOL. During lunch Olga asked me to walk with her so we headed into the park and walked just under two miles. And then later in the day Sabrina asked me if I was going walking after work and I said yes and she asked to join in. We ended up doing the long loop inside the park which is a 3.5 mile walk. It's very beautiful when you get over to the lakeside. We even saw a falcon with something it killed in it's mouth. Good walking day. The air was crisp and the sky was bright even at 6pm. Lot's of people were in the park walking, biking, and of course running. On my way back some older guy tried hitting on me. LOL. What is it about me that attracts the too young or too old and definitely not my type??? Oh well what can you do except try to be a crafty and polite as possible without crushing the dude.

Took a long hot shower when I got in just after 8pm and finally took a picture of me and my bright red shirt. Posted it on the training page. Hope it inspires others to donate and support. Feel slow going but I'm not going to worry about it. I'm tired. Should sleep well I hope tonight. Heather and I are supposed to go to the training session in Central Park tomorrow but I don't think I'm going if it's going to rain. I can be hard core and not care about the rain but I'm not feeling walking/jogging in the rain tomorrow. OK. Better wind down and rest my old bones. More tomorrow.

Another Walk in the Park

Literally going to walk in the park again today. Looks like it's going to be a good day outside so might as well walk in there and see how nice of a day everyone else is having. LOL. I have a slight headache but I think that's because I keep waking up at 6am and then falling back asleep. Wish I had someone to walk with me at that time but alas I don't yet. While it's daylight at that hour, not many people are outside thus making it a safety issue. If I get hurt or turn up missing nobody would know about it for a few days. That's pretty bad but what can I do except work around it and try to be safe. I better get moving. More later maybe during lunch.

Walk a Mile in My Shoes

For the most part I slept pretty well and woke up about 6am. I like the way 6am sounds. Quiet, just a hint of awakening about to come. Peaceful. I thought more about my ramblings yesterday. I think I must be tired. I'm a fighter. Always have been. Always will be. I should continue to fight for me. All of the aloneness, perceived setbacks, sometimes sadness is really meant to keep me strong. I believe in me. What more could I possibly need??? I should really just be saying Thank you to everyone I meet for with each person there is a lesson to learn. I really do think I was some type of female warrior (dare I say warrior princess...lol) in one of my previous lives. God knows I feel like while here on Earth I have already lived about five lives. Maybe I'm suppose to live four more like a cat and then move on. I better get a move on right now and get to work. Later.

Twitter Mania

I can't stress it enough that while technology is a great thing...it is also a very, very bad distraction at times. This whole Twitter phenomenon is, in my opinion, stupid. Have we as human beings gotten so ADD that now we must send text messages of 160 characters or less about basically nothing relevant in life? It seems phones are now being used for everything EXCEPT actually calling others to hear their voices! If nobody has time to do anything where are they finding the time to tweet??? I think the whole thing is absurd but what can you do...more and more folks don't actually want to interact with human beings. Go figure. I still do but what can I say except I'm a dinosaur who is forced to "adapt" to a degree. Obviously I don't hate technological advances since I blog however blogging for me is actually a response to the lack of truly meaningful human interaction. With hardly anyone to talk to, blogging is a way of talking to myself or any random stranger who stumbles past the page on any given day or time. You could say blogging is also a form of "pre-writing" for me. There are at least three books living inside my head. I hope before I die that I am able to get them to the page and that others enjoy reading my words.

I wasn't feeling 100% yesterday and today. I think I have some type of lite allergy or something. Was sneezing throughout the day and my throat has been slightly sore. Don't feel congested or anything so I hope whatever this reaction my body is having stays on the tame side. I don't have time to be sick or injured. Only 96 days left until the race and on the fundraising side it is going slowly. If I don't raise the funds I am on the hook for the difference I didn't raise. That's a lot of money for a freelancer like me but I'm not going to worry about it. I had hoped by now that more people who knew me would have supported but they have not. it's a bit disappointing but what can you do. It's like i' dead already to most of the folks I know so that just means I have to try harder to get support from strangers. I'll have to see if some of the local businesses I patronize will support. I hope so.

I've been thinking about joining a dating site again. I'm never optimistic on meeting new guys via the internet but since I'm "dating challenged" I figure at some point there has to be a few winners out there. I'm a little scared that I no longer have visions of having a home or family of my own. I don't even have visions of living beyond the next two decades. I don't think I'm giving up...just don't see any graspable hope on certain fronts. Makes me a little sad. I don't want to be a recluse but I don't know what else to do anymore. When I don't try I'm isolated, when I do try I'm isolated. While I do like being alone sometimes, it really brings me down being by myself all the time. I don't know, maybe I need to just change and create an alter ego who sleeps around and doesn't bond with anyone. Maybe that's easier. I don't know. I've been keeping myself busy but some things for me just aren't fun without people to talk and share some of these experiences with. I'm rambling and I guess complaining so I better stop.

Going to make it a point to walk my 10,000 steps tomorrow. Need a surprise or something. Since I have to create my own surprises I think I'll buy a box of haircolor and surprise myself with whatever shade I pick! I'll do that during the early afternoon and then take the long way home. OK better get some sleep.