The Saturday Roundup

Another week has passed already? Time is starting to really fly. Before you know it it will be 2010! Definitely was another interesting week for me. Since everything happens to me in threes, this week was no exception. Heard from three different people that I thought I would never speak to again. Two of the three decided to text me first to I guess "feel out" what mood I was in. To me it's immature. It's hiding behind technology where the recipient has to limit their response to 160 characters or less. Makes me very angry that folks who claimed to know me think texting is conversation. It isn't. By the way, all three were men. I'm not sure why they would think that after months or years of not speaking that texting is the way to reconnect. Do they think so little of me (or whoever they do that to) that the recipient is not even worthy of a phone call. Or is it that they are scared of rejection? The funny thing is that when I received these initial texts I didn't even know who they were from. I don't hold on to phone numbers of ex-boyfriends, ex-friends, ex anything. I have grown and learned so much about people in the last five years. So many that I thought were friends or people worth knowing really weren't. I have learned that it's ok to feel hurt but not to dwell in it. Some misinterpret my words and read it as victim. They are so wrong. Explaining why they are wrong isn't important since many will never understand my perspective. God truly blessed me with the sense to be able to view things not only from my perspective but others as well. Many don't and won't ever have that ability.

Last week, two others from the past reached out. One even apologized for not being a good friend. Like I told that person, I did feel abandoned but I've learned to move past the issues. My life, just like theirs, continues with or without each other. The funny thing is that with all of these folks, I reached out many times over many different periods. By email, by text, but mostly by phone where I left messages. They simply chose for whatever reason not to respond. One person in particular, in a text, said "well I'm responding now". Gee..I should feel so honored that they decided to spare about 25 characters to let me know. Nothing says I care like a text. LOL. I don't even know why I entertain these messages. Perhaps it just that for me...entertainment. I have learned to amuse myself. Life is indeed too short to worry about others who didn't want my friendship. One or two did and I am happy with that. I believe there are others in my present and future who will want to build meaningful relationships with me. Just keep moving forward. Not backwards. I feel at peace with being alone the like 95% of the time. I found that I really like me. LOL. I always did even on the sad days but I like me even more than ever! I have also found that I still give love even when I often don't get it in return.

I still can't get rid of the slight cough from the cold I have like four weeks ago. Have a doctor's appointment this month to get my flu shot so maybe he could shed some light on what illness is holding my lungs hostage. I feel like 95% fine though. Looking forward to trying to get my "ticket for one" for the upcoming festival. I think I will go to two performances if I can score the tix. Also have to finish my application by tomorrow so that I can submit it on Monday. Have appointments and meetings for the next two weeks. Busy busy. Also saw two positions that look good so have to submit that tomorrow also. Meeting with Jana on Thursday about the PSA project. I'm looking forward to volunteering with her organization. Hope new, productive, paid work comes my way soon. Actually I know it will. I'm a doer and a leader. I feel positive. Good things on the horizon.

OK better get going. It's lunch time. Only had a cup of tea with honey and lemon for breakfast. Maybe more later if I have time.

Labor Day 2009

Didn't go outside today but it looked like a nice day. Was supposed to walk in the parade but didn't get all of the info I needed to attend from the office organizer. Oh well, perhaps next year. I've been in Brooklyn my whole life yet have yet to attend that parade. Looks like fun but I also don't like crowds for an extended period of time. Just laid low today. Got a great surprise that I will remember for years to come. Miriam helped me reach goal on Strides and my pink ribbon is full! I'm really glad we are friends. She means so much to me. I am hoping that those who decided to join the team and walk will put in at least the minimum as well as get one or two people to contribute to the team effort. I hate seeing zeros on the page...especially when they are really heroes.

Did get all "gourmet" up here over the weekend and tried out new recipes. I saw a good marinade on one of the Food Network shows and tried it out on my chicken. Let it sit overnight and made grilled skewers on the stove top. Turned out fantastic! Whatever guy marries me definitely has to be able to hold his own in the kitchen. Who knew how much I really like to cook considering I rarely cooked until the age of about 30. And to boot...while I'm no Emeril, I can hold my own with some really great tasting meals. LOL. I have an entire box full of recipes to try one day. Need to actually live in a space where I have a real kitchen and not a kitchenette. It's hard working with no counter space. Saw another recipe for a mixed green salad with eggplant croutons...can you say yummie...will be making that tomorrow for Wednesdays lunch with maybe a goat cheese and spinach sandwich. I must be feeling Fall in the air since I'm thinking about food even more. With that I definitely have to think about my workout routine more. It's starting to get darker earlier and soon I won't be able to do my park walks. With boot camp gone I'm going to have to get creative with my own workouts. I get so bored with the same old thing. I would love to take dance lessons or boxing classes or something. Have to be really frugal with money since I still have three more year end donations to make. Big sacrifice but it's worth it. Makes me feel better that I'm doing my part even with little or no significant amount of money.

Oh...before I forget, I guess you could say this week held another surprise. On Wednesday and Friday guys were flirting with me and asked for my number. I, of course, took their number instead and will call to feel them out. Don't want crazies with my number you know. LOL. Not really focused on the boys anymore and they are now just random thoughts every now and then. I'm waiting for "Mr. Right" to find me and I do believe that we haven't met yet. When the timing is right for both of us in our lives, we'll meet. I think it will be sooner than I think but who knows. Right now my focus is finding the next gig or full time that is the right match or else it's back to unemployment in November. I'm kind of hoping that this assignment goes longer for me than what was projected. There are so many work opportunities where my skills fit in nicely. Let's see what happens. I've also started reading up on my financial management info. I'm a little rusty since I don't have to apply this info right now but it's always good to keep up for when the right opportunity comes along.

I still have a slight cough from the cold that plagued me for the last three weeks. Feel tons better though. Going to get another cup of tea with honey and lemon now

Labor Day Weekend

For the most part this weekend has been a nice, quiet weekend as usual. I have actually grown to enjoy not hearing from anyone or attending a rare activity that I didn't have to plan myself. It's a bit warm up here even though it's pleasantly cool outside. If I had a cross breeze it would be perfect. I may have to turn on the air conditioner. Been watching reports on the current health reform debate. It's interesting that all of the folks opposed to change are those who have health insurance. I wonder if their perspective would be altered if their insurance went away and they didn't have the means to pay out of pocket like the rest of us. Usually those who make the law rarely have to live by it. It will be interesting to see what happens this week. Also. totally sidebar, I find it insane that some people are having an issue with a taped message by the President of the United States being delivered in schools. Are you kidding me? I actually heard the phrase "socialist propaganda." What ever happened to respecting the President even if you don't agree with his views or proposals? Sometimes I wonder if we have too much democracy in this country. I guess I'd rather have that than no democracy at all.

Sent out my last individual emails to folks to see if they can actually spare a few bucks for the latest nonprofit initiative I have joined. I always find it amazing that very few are willing to support even with a bare $1 or $5 yet they can still afford to pay for cable, go out to dinner, etc. I can't remember the last time I was treated to a really great dinner. Two or three folks fall into the exception category where at least they call or make the time to meet up. It really means alot to me since I have now been able to weed out friends from associates.

I found out something interesting about the day I was born. It turns out there was a solar eclipse on that day...about two hours after I was born. Somewhere in a past life I chose to leap into this one in a fiery bang. Very interesting indeed. I think this year I'm going to make a cake and put candles on it...many candles...and blow them out. I can't remember the last time that has occurred. Now that I think about it I don't think that's ever happened. I do remember my 6th birthday and the Wonder Woman cake I had. Hey...maybe I'll get a wonder woman cake (smile).

OK. better go. Still have that volunteer project I have been working on. Need to get my presentation together for next week. Still want to look into Spanish lessons. More tomorrow since it's a day off...don't get paid but at least I have something to work on...then again..when don't I? LOL.