Beach Bust

I'm so annoyed right now. I planned to head to the beach tomorrow and now I can't go. From last week I asked my mother to use the car and 30minutes ago I get some bullshit phone call that my sister says something is wrong with the car and it has to go to the shop tomorrow. Yet again this is just some bullshit my sister came up with so that I can't use the car. It really upsets me since I borrow the car but only once or twice a year. She's so damn selfish and my mother (and father) let her get away with this shit. I'm sure my mother told her I needed the car to go to the beach so now that's why there is allegedly something wrong with the car. So the one day I need to use the car and that's the day something is wrong with it??? Yeah...right. Nothing is ever wrong with it when she needs to play big spender and roll her loser "friends" all around town while our mother funds her lifestyle.

I haven't gone to the beach in two years! I was really, really looking forward to going out, relaxing in the sand, taking in the sea air. I really feel like crying. What's worse is that Susan was going to go with me and I had to cancel this very outing two weeks before because I wasn't being give access to the car because of my sibling. My family is an embarassment. I think from now on I'm not going to talk about them anymore if people ask me. I'll just politely say I don't want to talk about them. They hurt my heart tremendously. Debbie this, Debbie that. I'm sick of her and her bullshit. She's selfish. I wish I had my own car, my own home, my own everything so that I didn't have to even ask anyone for anything. Trying to do the most simpliest of things and can't even get anywhere! I think I'm going to look around for a cheap plane ticket to someplace, anyplace and just go or if I can rent a car and plan a four day driving trip someplace even better.