Memorial Day 2011

Another boring holiday with nothing to do and no place to go. I still don't understand why those with great jobs, even greater homes and families, don't bother to have collective gatherings just once a year...just because. I guess you could say I'm somewhat in a not so great mood. Not in a bad mood but a bit disappointed. Rough week. Had to break up...AGAIN...with Kevin. It was bad enough that he underappreciated me four years ago. What makes this breakup worse is that after I completely moved on from him, he was the one who kept coming back asking for a second chance. He got one and decided to blow it yet again! I really don't know what else to say except that in his case, I'm disposable. Maybe I was just some type of competition for him. Maybe that was his goal all along...to see if he could get me to care again so that he could just be lazy and passive aggressive and then blame me for us not working again.

What can you do except keep moving forward right? Still sucks. I hope this isn't another summer of no special guy to spend time with. I love me...but I don't believe that I'm supposed to be alone anymore. I need Mr. Perfect for me to make himself known now. In the meantime, I'll continue to look for the better apartment and right path for me financially. Just feel a bit sad today. Tomorrow will be better right?