The Universe and Her Messages

It's been a bit busy as usual for the past week. Still playing catchup with homework but it's coming together. I lucked out with class being cancelled due to the teacher being sick. I picked the right day to take a "mental health day". Ha ha. I stayed in my 72 degree climate controlled space all day and enjoyed it tremenously!

The big news for the last two days was the drama I call my family. So my sister basically totalled my mothers car early Monday morning. The story I've been told is that she took the car late Sunday night to go to a party, parked it, and then sometime later a police chase forced criminals to crash into my mother's car and two others on the block. Talk about more bad luck for Madame Deborah. The more enabling my parents do...the worse it gets. A $20,000 car,fully paid,that the insurance company will value at less than 5K. What a shame. I think the real tragedy was listening to my mother actually say that she will pay for cabs or take the bus if Madame Deborah doesn't come up with some money to replace the car. If?!? WTF! My response was what's with the "if". She lives rent free, her entire $60K income is disposable, and now she also gets to destroy your car? Foolishness. I don't want to hear about it anymore. I told her that they will just have to work it out. I've worked my so called sister out of the picture and that's where she'll stay for me...completely out of the picture. I'm ashamed that we are related by blood.

I've been feeling really good the last few weeks...especially after breaking up with the last boyfriend. I read a really good article titled "The Truth About Childless Women" and it made me feel really good about where I am right now in my life. Basically the writer was validating what I already know...there is nothing wrong with we women who are still childless and over the age of 35. It's not that we don't want kids and don't want to be married. It's about waiting for the right match to come along and if he (or she for ladies that float that way) doesn't come along then life goes on...happily. I use to call myself "dating challenged" but I liked her phrasing better...."circumstantially infertile". Like the writer, I too would love to have children and have a great love in my life. However, with that said, I should not be made to feel like I have to attach myself to just anyone simply because I'm over 35. I am not "less than" because I'm still single. The current circumstances have forced me to remain alone. So far I've encountered many self absorbed guys who don't want me. I do know the right guy is out there for me. And just in case he doesn't come around until i'm like 70...I'm still have a great life and will continue to do so. Had some crazy encounters with people from the past and i'm glad I did. Out of all of the failures I was able to really realize that even if they can't see it...I have high value.

I also have this innate feeling that I'm going to be meeting new and interesting people going forward and that my life will change dramatically in an even better way soon. Can't really explain why I have that feeling...just do. I better go...it's late (as usual). More later.