Keep Driving

For the last two days I have been dragging out of bed really, really late...like half the day is gone late. Guess it doesn't help that I don't go to sleep until like 3am. At least I did get one mini-paper almost done. I'll finish that tonight with my h.w. for seminar. Just not focused enough today. Sometimes I have so much on my mind that I think my head is going to explode. Working out helps me to de-stress a little bit but I still can't work in that fourth day. The cold weather is also aggravating my right knee to the point where it gets used every day. I would go get it checked out by a doctor (I have a feeling it's tendinitis) but I fear getting a medical bill that I simply cannot afford at this time. Many people I know don't realize just how much of an impact not having great medical insurance has had in my life. For some reason everyone seems to think I have tons of money stashed somewhere and lots of time to just sit around and do nothing. Simply not true. I did hear two great quotes the other day that I really like. I'll only share one today. "When you're going through hell...keep driving." I do love to drive.

On a more personal front, I know I said I wasn't going to talk about how it feels to be alone and the whole whoa is me thing but I do have a quick comment. I have to toot my own horn and say that I have been pretty brave these past few months in terms of expressing myself. I've been totally rejected by a guy I really like and have learned that at least this time around I was honest about my feelings. What the receiver does with the information is really his call. I've also learned that it's o.k. to be the person that I am and want to be. I am creating the person I want to be. I started out with a good foundation of a good heart and good intentions and have built a steady structure all along the way. Every time i'm feeling down on myself for being alone, I'm going to remind myself that it's o.k. and to keep building.