Fefe is Me

Slept a little bit better last night than the previous two despite falling asleep at 2am. It's been a while since I've been through a round of insomnia so I always welcome sleep when I get it. With my latest rest came the latest dream. While I only remember bits and pieces of it, I do find the parts that I actually remember pretty darn interesting. I remember talking to a woman named Fefe. Somehow I feel that she was me. As weird as that sounds I truly believe I was talking to another version of myself. In one part of this dream, I was telling Fefe, who was holding a beautiful little girl who looked to be under the age of one, to go towards the right and pointing down a street where others were standing. It was as if though I was guiding myself to a safer place to be. I should also add that I was talking to a much thinner version of myself thank you very much! The only other portion of the dream that I remember is talking to Fefe again on what look like a different period of time. Not sure if it was same day, time, week or even year. She was running toward me and I remember pointing for her to again...run towards the right. There was a crowd chasing her. Kind of like how fans chase a celebrity. I remember touching her hand and pointing to "go to the right." That's all I remember. Weird, interesting dream.

A couple of quick self notes on this dream. If I had to analyze this in the most rudimentary way possible, I think there is something pretty big coming up in my future that involves a little girl. This is like the third or fourth time I have had a dream that involved a little girl, my future daughter perhaps? As for the crowds, I think something in my future will also mean that some large group of people will want to listen so something that I have possibly shared with the public? Who knows. Instinctively, I truly believe that when I am dreaming I really am spiritually and emotionally traveling. I always find that when I wake up I almost always feel better no matter what the dream...even the rare bad ones! That's always a good thing. Over the past few months I've been remembering more and more of them so that's always fascinating to me. I'm going to try to be more diligent about documenting them as well as some of the other thoughts I have in the overnight hours. I'm going to start keeping a notepad on the nightstand by my bed. Perhaps its my book in the making.

The snow has picked up here and I so want to go out and play but there is a mix of sleet in there so not sure if I can get in a snow Angela. It's so beautiful looking outside. I think within the next hour after I eat lunch I'm going to put on my winter gear and go for a simple walk around the block. I know the wind is picking up so I shouldn't linger outside as it could be very dangerous especially with the wind and those dangerous drivers on the streets. I will go for a brief winter walk and ponder for a few moments as well as be thankful. Right now I'm listening to Miriam's CD (Sita's Light) and its very calming as I look out at the falling snow. Before I head outside, I want to comment about Lori Gottlieb's book about settling as well as Sherry Argov's book. Better get lunch so I can have energy for the storm.