R-E-S-P-E-C-T

I woke up feeling really good today. Empowered. Not really sure why. Just felt that way when I opened my eyes. I felt...untouchable. Powerful. It's good to have days like today where nothing was going to bring me down. Even the train ride was good. I felt like one of the IPod people (even though I don't have one and still listen to a CD player). You know how the IPeople are...white earbuds, the knowing look that they're in, the music, the culture. Being part of "the normals". Funny thing is, I don't want to be like everybody else. I just want to be Ang with the feeling that comes with being me. The good feeling.

I finally decided what i'm going to do for my upcoming birthday. I'm going to get my hair "did", then get a manicure. After that, i'm going to do something I rarely do...buy an overpriced cup of hot chocolate then go to the "Top of the Rock" for a view of New York. After that, I'm going to get desert at Serendipty. And by the way...i'll be doing all of this by myself. Funny thing is...i'm cool with that! I can honestly say that I have matured to the point that I can be alone and be o.k. I have gotten tired of waiting for people to celebrate or even acknowledge the day I came into this world. I'm glad i'm here. Next year, I am going to spend my birthday on a beach somewhere. That's a promise to me. It's funny how it takes many people disrespecting me to know that if I don't have respect for myself they certainly won't. I've got it. Message received. While I hope one day someone will take the time to really get to know me, I'm cool with the possibility that may never happen. I know who I am and what i'm capable of. Waking up today feeling good reminded me that I don't have to have a reason to feel the way I feel. Just be me!