One Word...

Can you guess what it is? Insomnia! Need I say more??? I did realize not to long ago that when I can't fall asleep, I turn clockwise in bed. Left side, back, right side, stomach. Too funny. After the fifth rotation over the course of an hour I decided to get up until I actually feel sleepy. I'm yawning right now so maybe soon i'll actually be able to go to sleep. These are the nights I wish someone else was up so that I could talk about everything or nothing at all. Only three more weeks of classes and i'm done. Still can't believe it...a year and a half went by quickly! I can remember the first day of class like it was yesterday. Nervous excitement, anticipation, challenging expectations...and now...completion.

My presentations will be done the Monday before graduation so being able to see some folks for dinner that Wednesday will be a refreshing change of pace. Alot of people won't be there but for those who say they are coming it's a good thing. I think at this point even if nobody showed I would still have a good time all by myself! I would buy myself a really good meal and a really great drink and celebrate Ang style! I got some really good leads this week jobwise and my name is in for several that have not gone public yet so i'll keep my fingers crossed. I know that right fit will come along when the time is right. I'm not worried anymore.

I'm hearing all these creepy noises outside every so often. Just now it sounded like someone knocking over a garbage can cover....maybe it was a rat doing that! Hey...you never know. Every so often a car goes by. Also heard what sounded like someone entering through the front gate (or a nearby gate). Then there is also the night silence...not quite quiet....not a single noise either...just stillness.

My sister called me earlier to ask if she could borrow money from me. How insane is that? I still don't get it. What makes everyone believe I have a lot of money? In her case I really don't get it. What is she doing? She has a great job, doesn't pay rent or utilities, and never has to worry about food. Why doesn't she have a huge sum of money saved anywhere? I think my parents enabled her so much that she knows she will always have a safety net. It's kind of sad that she's the older sibling yet I can't really look to her for guidance on anything. Lately, both of my parents have been putting pressure on me to learn all about their finances and other personal matters "just in case". I know I'm supposed to live by the ten commandments especially the one that says to honor thy mother and father however I do feel a responsibility to myself these days that says I need to be selfish now. At what point do I respect their wishes and desires while respecting myself with all of my needs, wishes, and desires? It's a tough question with no easy answer. I'm feeling a little sleepy now so i'm going to attempt getting some sleep. It looks like it's going to be a really nice weekend so i'm going to try to get out and enjoy the sunshine. I need to find some fun outdoor groups that I can join so that I can meet more people. I'm really going to force myself to get out more so that weekends aren't so depressing for me. Volunteer stuff is great but I need more. K. Better go.