Temptation Alley

I have been tempted for the last two days. Tempted to hook up with boytoy. Tempted to call old boyfriends just to hook up and leave. Just tempted. Chalk it up to hormones. I want sex so badly that it's taking all of my strength to fight the temptation. I'm winning...but barely. It's not so much the act of sex but rather the physical contact with someone of the opposite sex that is calling me. It's been about four months since I've last had any guy touch me. The more time passes, the more difficult it gets to stop thinking about it...no matter how much I occupy my time. I know God is testing me and so far i'm passing...but like I said before...barely. Miriam says she has a mantra for me towards attracting the right mate. I hope I see her soon. In the meantime, I watched four movies today after I cleaned up. That's a record for me on a lonely Saturday night. Oh well. I did have a great Friday where I found not one but two denim skirts that make my "assets" look good! I've been feeling extra sexy these days. That's a great thing whether I have a man or not. I'm slightly down now but I know tomorrow will be better. O.k. Back to another movie.