I Gotta Feeling...

When I woke up this morning I had a feeling it was going to be a good day despite some of my mixed emotions about a few things. I went walking in the park (got in over 11,000 steps today), stopped in the library to pick up my latest round of books, walked home, took a really good cool midday shower (really love those), and then cried out the last bit of the sad emotions. I'm free now. It took three weeks to release the lingering sad feelings but now I can honestly say they are gone. In the words of the Black Eyed Peas...I gotta feeling. LOL. Everything is going to be ok. I can feel it...emotionally, financially, physically, spiritually. I haven't put all the pieces together yet on how it's all going to come together but I just feel it. It is coming together as I live and breathe. Something that I learned about myself that I failed to acknowledge all this time is that I love. Despite being rejected, hurt, humiliated, abandoned...I still love and am open to it knowing that I can get hurt again at any time. Love is messy but worth it. In making this discovery, I reminded myself that I love myself and others. My heart has not hardened like some I have met along my journey.

After I finished crying I looked in the mirror and did my affirmations. Tonight's gonna be a good, good night. I better get going. Have some reading to do and more posting on the other blog which I reserved for the dating stories. Got another interesting email from someone I met years ago. Crazy. The universe has a funny way of bringing everything full circle. I'm glad God helped me to learn to be more aware.