Beginning of a New Week

Nothing like a huge cup of hot cocoa to make me feel better...which I do feel better today. I realized around 2am that Friday and Saturdays aren't necessarily my most favorite days and I know why. I'm going to have to work hard to break this. This morning's dream was interesting. In this one I was some type of criminal investigator or detective. My partner and I were at a doctor's elaborate home asking him questions. I showed him a photo of a pregnant woman he knew. She was wearing a red dress and gold colored high heeled shoes. The question asked must have been something to the effect of if she could jump in those shoes because in the dream the doctor did a demonstration (similar to mini-hopping like a rabbit) to test out the question. He turned to me and said "no...it's not possible...not in those shoes." As we were walking out the door I thanked the doctor again and he grabbed my hand and said "for you...anytime." It felt as he knew me well. When my partner and I got to the car (which was a blue, two door sportscar), somebody had ripped off the driver side door. The feeling that I got was that it was payback to him for some type of lover's rage. He laughed and joked as he picked up the door and put it back on the drivers side. As I entered the car on the passenger side, there was dirt all over the seat as if though someone stomped all over it. I remember shaking my head and cleaning up the mess. That's all I remember about this particular dream.

I woke up really late today...just after 11am. It's been a good while since I've done that. Lots to do today including the rest of my readings for this week's classes. I also need to read up more on investing. Now that i'm looking at my statement a bit closer, I actually did pretty well this year by having the foresite to max out on my contributions in 2006. There was a 22% return on my contributions in the past year. But now that I will have to manage my own retirement account I, like most other women, am a bit intimidated by how to invest wisely. I know I can do it though. I'm going to approach this like one of my classes and pace myself, read up on info, and most importantly...diversify. I was lucky last year in the sense that company stock did well in addition to mutual fund I selected. I'm a novice but I'm learning. I was devastated several years ago when I had to cash out my 401k's just so that I could make basic living expenses and other bills because there was no other alternative. I'm not going to do that this go around even if I have to live on the street! I at least started the process last night which feels empowering.

On a different note...i'm having trouble with my abstract statement and MOU for seminar. I have to word this thing properly. I know I shouldn't be doubting myself but if I screw this up I don't graduate. I think i'm overthinking it too much. I just want to stay on top of everything since the job search interrupts any type of normal work flow. At least for now I do have time on my side in the sense that if I was working right now I would be down by at least five hours per day to do schoolwork. I have an appt with career services in two weeks so that should help in the search as well. I better go. Still have reading and other tasks to do. Maybe more later.