Am I Behind Again?!?

You bet your bippie I am! LOL. It's really difficult to keep up with this blog simply because I also enjoy putting a pen to paper. I know it's old school but there's something really special about leaving a paper trail and actually knowing that someone would recognize my actual handwriting. Nobody really knows what anybody's handwriting looks like anymore! Everything is email, voicemail, text messaging, etc. I guess I could be considered a dinosaur but I don't care since that's my thing! It was another uneventful weekend. Just did laundry at my mother's house and basically that was it. Weekends still depress me very much. I need to find more hobbies to occupy my time in addition to finding some weekend friends who want to hang out and do fun stuff. All of my friends are couples and while I'm pro relationship, it really sucks spending time with folks who seem to have forgotten that they too were singles once. It really is amazing that nobody knows anybody single once they are hooked up. Perhaps I should only associate myself with single people since those are the only people who know single people. Ha ha. Oh well what can you do.

So I started a new temp assignment this past Wed. Could be another long term gig. That's always good since I only had about one more month's worth of living expense in the bank. It sucks being back to paycheck to paycheck but I know that's only temporary for me also. I feel like a phoenix rising from the ashes. Hard to explain why but I just do. I am slightly worried about the next round of medical tests that I will eventually have to take. Medical expenses are what are basically keeping me broke. I hope to have medical/dental coverage soon. It really sucks that most insurance plans are tied to the traditional work model and if you are freelance you have to make alot to afford a really good plan. While I don't expect to be working for peanuts in the nonprofit world, I don't anticipate making my millions that way either. Maybe I should seek out the gay guy who wants a faux wife to make him look legitimate. Ha ha. Just kidding. One of my many flaws is that I can't pretend to love a man. I either do or I don't. I sent O'Neil an email telling him that trying to be his friend hurts me too much and that I'm not going to contact him anymore. It really does hurt me to know that I completely fell for a man who will never love me. I will keep hope and faith that one man's junk is another man's treasure. That guy is out there and will thank all the men who treated me like junk...for he will all of the treasures I possess. I'll still work at remaining positive even though to date things on that front have been so pessimistic.

Lor is in Germany right now. I hope she is safe and enjoying it. Ev told me last week that he and Rae are getting married this September. Good deal. I wonder what was the catalyst for the step forward again. Whatever it is I wish them luck. O.K. I'm going to try to post some pictures from the first three ports. Will try to blog about them also. Better go. More next time.