Food for Thought

So definitely not my best eating habits this weekend. Of course the past two and a half days I've been eating terribly. Typical comfort food eating. The funny thing is I don't even have "bad" foods up here to eat..just too much of the normal. On Saturday I made pancakes. Never really do that. Also had bacon. Don't do that on the regular either. Crackers, cheese, massive amounts of plums and oranges. I think I want to throw up just typing all this. Food has always been my friend...and my enemy. You know what they say, keep your friends close and your enemies even closer. I need to get more disciplined. I want to do marathons and charity related walk/runs. Gotta get more focused. I know I'm stressing about making rent when I shouldn't worry about it. Just don't have enough of an emergency fund saved. The good news is that I don't have credit card debt. Only into Uncle Sam for student loans. It's still a bit depressing having to sign up for unemployment...again. Oh well...what can I do except continue to build my skills, look for other sources of income, and move forward.

I'm sure people still don't get why I don't have a fondness for email. I feel like even when I express myself to folks, all they do is send me more email and usually negative email. I can't even have a selfish moment focused on me. Really sucks. I should become a practicing recluse but i'm not ready to throw in the towel just yet.

OK. something going on outside. Firetrucks are literally outside across the street from my building. More in a few.


10:35pm...so still not sure what the heck is going on outside. It looks like the firefighters are looking for a gas leak or something. Nothing to indicate evacuation but it is frustrating living in a building with a bunch of morons who don't convey information. I would probably die in a fire emergency if it were left up to them to alert me. Never a dull moment around here. Hope there is nothing major for concern outside.