Twitter Mania

I can't stress it enough that while technology is a great thing...it is also a very, very bad distraction at times. This whole Twitter phenomenon is, in my opinion, stupid. Have we as human beings gotten so ADD that now we must send text messages of 160 characters or less about basically nothing relevant in life? It seems phones are now being used for everything EXCEPT actually calling others to hear their voices! If nobody has time to do anything where are they finding the time to tweet??? I think the whole thing is absurd but what can you do...more and more folks don't actually want to interact with human beings. Go figure. I still do but what can I say except I'm a dinosaur who is forced to "adapt" to a degree. Obviously I don't hate technological advances since I blog however blogging for me is actually a response to the lack of truly meaningful human interaction. With hardly anyone to talk to, blogging is a way of talking to myself or any random stranger who stumbles past the page on any given day or time. You could say blogging is also a form of "pre-writing" for me. There are at least three books living inside my head. I hope before I die that I am able to get them to the page and that others enjoy reading my words.

I wasn't feeling 100% yesterday and today. I think I have some type of lite allergy or something. Was sneezing throughout the day and my throat has been slightly sore. Don't feel congested or anything so I hope whatever this reaction my body is having stays on the tame side. I don't have time to be sick or injured. Only 96 days left until the race and on the fundraising side it is going slowly. If I don't raise the funds I am on the hook for the difference I didn't raise. That's a lot of money for a freelancer like me but I'm not going to worry about it. I had hoped by now that more people who knew me would have supported but they have not. it's a bit disappointing but what can you do. It's like i' dead already to most of the folks I know so that just means I have to try harder to get support from strangers. I'll have to see if some of the local businesses I patronize will support. I hope so.

I've been thinking about joining a dating site again. I'm never optimistic on meeting new guys via the internet but since I'm "dating challenged" I figure at some point there has to be a few winners out there. I'm a little scared that I no longer have visions of having a home or family of my own. I don't even have visions of living beyond the next two decades. I don't think I'm giving up...just don't see any graspable hope on certain fronts. Makes me a little sad. I don't want to be a recluse but I don't know what else to do anymore. When I don't try I'm isolated, when I do try I'm isolated. While I do like being alone sometimes, it really brings me down being by myself all the time. I don't know, maybe I need to just change and create an alter ego who sleeps around and doesn't bond with anyone. Maybe that's easier. I don't know. I've been keeping myself busy but some things for me just aren't fun without people to talk and share some of these experiences with. I'm rambling and I guess complaining so I better stop.

Going to make it a point to walk my 10,000 steps tomorrow. Need a surprise or something. Since I have to create my own surprises I think I'll buy a box of haircolor and surprise myself with whatever shade I pick! I'll do that during the early afternoon and then take the long way home. OK better get some sleep.