Cruzin' for Christmas

So for two days in a row, I have been asked by some guy if I'm married. What's with the marriage question? I actually don't mind being asked that question. It's the follow up question that tends to tick me off....that question being, "why aren't you married?" Are you kidding me?!? Am I supposed to answer that question? My response is usually either "nobody wants or needs me" or "I'm just not special enough to most of the guys I met so far". I don't say it to be dramatic, it's just my way of shutting the conversation down. I truly do believe I will be married to a wonderful man who will respect, love, and protect me as I him. In the meantime, I keep moving forward.

For the last two weeks I've really been thinking about many things but in particular...Christmas is on my mind. I am really starting to enjoy going away for the holidays since staying in NY is totally boring to me since many are not around. The real challenge is figuring out where to go. I think if I do cruise I want to also be gone for New Years Eve/Day. I was telling my classmate about my plans and I said that for my 40th birthday I'll think of something really big to do. She said why wait for 40. She has a point! Just before the travel plan conversation we were talking about feeling tired and she said I'm young, why am I tired. I asked her how old does she think I am. I totally LOVE her response...she said 27 with a serious face. That compliment really made me feel good. That's like the third time in recent months that people thought I was in my 20s. Way cool. I do like the age I am now but what woman wouldn't take a younger looking age compliment. LOL. Since most of my major holidays, birthdays, and generally every day is spent alone for the most part, why not do something big for this birthday, etc.? I'm going to make a decision by the end of July and just book whatever it is. How fun.

Class was really good tonight although the information is really complicated. I have so much review/reading to do but I like the subject matter. Interesting learning how to explain something at its root and then teach it. For me, there's something really exciting and refreshing about learning new ideas and concepts. I wish I had unlimited funds to learn everything I want to learn. Hopefully I'll have a long and healthy life to be able to continue learning.

Well..I've been talking about Christmas but first one must get through the next holiday...4th of July. Of course nobody is having nothing. Ha ha. Oh well. I feel good so even if I'm home reading or sitting in the park I'll be fine. I've been feeling really powerful for a couple of weeks now. No real explanation other than I feel good in my skin and feel good about me. Maybe it's age and extra wisdom that have a calming effect for me. Who really knows. I'm just going to roll with it. My goal by next year this time is to move to Spain and start the next chapter of my life. OK. I'm rambling now...plenty of thoughts...limited time. LOL. More tomorrow. Goodnight Ang.