Another One Bites the Dust

So tomorrow is my last day on the latest assignment. Even though I know the rules of temping (day to day player), it still kind of feels like being fired when you are told when your last day is on site. The ironic thing about this particular site is that all of the work that I was doing was the castoff of what one full time employee kept neglecting to do. My supervisor expressed great satisfaction with my work and is billing it as a strategic move to conserve money. That's fine...its the rule of business. What I do find interesting is that most managers fail to question negligible hires (like the lazy full timer). I have a feeling they are going to let her go so and then call me with a job offer. You never know. When I got on the train to head home, tears of frustration welled up. I held it together until I got home though. I like temping. Sense of newness. Entire streams of learning to be done. The downside is never knowing when your "time is up" and actually witnessing people who manage to keep full time jobs despite the fact that all of their coworkers know they simply shouldn't be in the job. I know I will find another placement or full time position (the right fit) soon. In the meantime, keep myself busy. Just bought a brand new monthly metrocard last week. Use it or lose it. I am a bit sad also that nobody bothered to call or check up on me to give me a pep talk or something. I only have next months expenses in the bank and then I'm literally up shits creek. Had this assignment lasted through the end of summer I would have been in a better condition. There's that word again...would have. Better get back to affirmations. Pick myself up. I even tried picking a fight with someone in email. No response. That's depressing when nobody cares. So far I still care. I'm starting to feel a bit sad again. Better say my prayers and go lay in my bed and relax. More tomorrow...after that I'll have more time on my hands.