The Big 400

Can you believe I have 400 posts to this blog? I do realize that others have thousands since they are daily however for someone like me it truly is a bit amazing. While I'm not anti-technology, I do actually covet privacy...especially my own. But something about blogging is freeing for me even at the expense of letting go of some of that privacy. Granted, I don't blog about every single thing on my mind (certainly not enough time in the universe lol) however I have shared more than the average Jane and in doing so that has made me an even better woman. Life is too short not to share how one really feels at times right?

For the most part I feel pretty good today. My hand is still hurting a bit but the wound is healing. Other wounds are healing too...including patching up my spirit. Looking back at previous posts, I know I have talked about my fear of being alone and not finding a mate. Time and time again I let that fear dictate the type of men I associated myself with and that always meant me compromising and only me. That simply isn't me. In compromising I have learned that all I'm really doing is blocking myself from my soulmate...the man who I don't have to keep proving to him that I am worthy of love and his time. I know inside that I am. Why the hell was I wasting time with the knuckleheads who aren't smart enough to see that? Because I was not being aware. I'm awake now. I kind of view being temporarily unemployed as part of the right path for my life. In not working in toxic environments, I have been free to continue to explore and really enjoy simply being me. I may not be making any money right now but I am making a difference with the time I volunteer to others. That's so much more valuable than money. I am realistic also. I do know I need money in this world to live. It will come. I will earn it and it will come in other sources to me. I will not only survive but also continue to thrive. OK I'm rambling and have stuff to do today. Yesterday was such a beautiful day. I was out on the island and it was so nice I had the sunroof open. Today looks like rain. Into everyones life a little rain must fall right? LOL.

It's noon. I better go workout. Still having problems with my left knee. If the pain doesn't go away by the end of the week I think I'll pay my doctor a visit to make sure I haven't damaged something in there. I think I'll also work on my Easter project today too and then later in the day finish up my vision board. More maybe later if not tomorrow.

Busy Bee as Usual

Only have like ten minutes to post today. Been a busy week. I managed to cut my hand yesterday in what I now call a stupid scissor accident. Was getting the recycling together when it happened. Not a simple scratch but bad enough that when it happened I felt warm and faint for a few moments and had to sit down while trying to control the bleeding with pressure. I'm ok now but my hand hurts just a bit. Should heal in a couple of days.

I'm really enjoying my volunteer opportunities while looking for my next position in the work force. Been doing alot of prospect research for one organization that will be having two major events this year. The activity keeps my mind engaged, allows me to uses some of my knowledge and creativity, and lets me meet new people. While I have a bit more time on my hands, I have managed to squeak in time to start dating again. Surprisingly, I'm not afraid but rather confident with each date. There are some interesting men out there. So far I have had a date with an accountant, a foundation executive, and a bonafide military man. LOL. I had this expectation that I would be judged because I'm not currently employed but for now the opposite holds true. Turns out these guys don't care and probably realize that I'm not some deadbeat woman but rather someone who will be back in the workforce soon.

Training is going slow but steady. Still having trouble with my left knee. Hope that issue goes away soon. Not going to jog as much until if feels better. I better log off. Will revisit over the weekend. Tomorrow is going to be a great day weather wise. I'm going to go out and enjoy the sun.

Government Holdup

I seriously believe the government is doing everything in their power to delay tax refunds. I sent off my tax materials early as usual...about six weeks ago. Why oh why did I get my 1040 back with a note asking me to submit W2 and 1099 info that was sent with the original return? Somebody at the IRS unstapled the copies and then must have forgotten and decided to tell me weeks later they didn't get everything (when in fact they did). I'm just going to take the materials into the office tomorrow. I shouldn't have to wait another four to six weeks to correct their mistake.

Saw the landlord today as I was on my way out to work out. I would have sworn he was dead considering his lack of response to my request for a lease sent in January and a follow up note sent in February. I think next month I'm going to hold on to the rent past the due date to see if he miraculously picks up the phone to call me looking for the money. Why not have some harmless spring fun considering his rude ass grandson thought it was ok to act like a dick instead of a man. Real men don't disrespect women.

I'm feeling a bit stiff from yesterday and today's work outs. My left knee is bothering me slightly. Nothing like my man Mr. Icy Hot to soothe away the pain. LOL. That reminds me I have to send out reminder email about the August event. Only $900 more to raise. Oh my. I hope others can find money to contribute towards the cause. If not I'm responsible for whatever is not raised of the $1,100. I hope I'm working by then so that my commitment won't be a problem in others don't support financially. Ironically got back a "rejection" email from a position I applied for a couple of weeks ago...you know the ones..."the response was overwhelming blah, blah, blah...we'll keep your resume on file for a year". I have a feeling something really good is coming my way very soon.

I started getting my Easter stuff together. Lent is almost over. I've learned even more about myself as well as others during this year's sacrificing. Will share more on that maybe tomorrow. Getting a bit sleepy. Better get some rest since I'll have to spend mindless hours with "the feds" tomorrow then off to my volunteer shift. Tomorrow's another day.