LOL. Something about the slang language always makes me laugh. I think it's in part because many folks don't think I can manage that vernacular. They seem to forget that I am indeed black. Ha ha. Anyway....Happy Easter to one and all. I hit a rut in the writing world and didn't feel like blogging for the week even though there was a lot going on in the world to comment and write about. Was feeling slightly down but I'm feeling good now. It's hard to believe that just this morning I was crying. As you know crying is a good release for me from time to time. Just last Thursday I was saying to myself I feel the need to cry to get rid of some pent up energy and frustration. These indeed are the times I need a boyfriend the most...that would be one lucky man. Oh well..the future will generated that eventually. For the most part as usual it was a quiet weekend. Did laundry, went grocery shopping, nothing spectacular. This week I will weed through my closet and get rid of even more stuff and start taking heavy winter items over to the "winter/summer storage" space a.k.a. my mother's house and the basement closet. LOL. I long for the day when I have a true home of my own. Still feel kind of like a nomad in the sense that I own very little and could be forced to move at any given time on somebody elses schedule. I want to do things on my schedule and not be forced to work with others and their egos (it's hard enough keeping mine in check and below the radar...lol).
I didn't get any marshmallow peeps yet but will buy some tomorrow. It's hard to believe that Lent is over and that 40 days have passed. I have found discovered even more about myself through this year's sacrifices. I gave up soda, meat on Fridays, and a human being. Surprisingly, the hardest sacrifice was the no eating meat on Fridays even though I'm not a big meat eater. I thought giving up the human being would have been hard but it wasn't. Perhaps because that person treated me so poorly made it easy to finally give that person up. So in total it took two years and 40 days. Better late than never right. What I have learned in this year's process is that while I still have my ups and downs...I deserve to be treated with dignity and respect by men and that even in the off moments when I lose all faith in men to remind myself that I must remain patient and never let any man put his insecurities on me. I have my own to deal work with and overcome (and already am). I've already pushed myself to go out on a few dates and that alone has reinforced that I am a strong black woman and it will take a strong, confident man to be with me. I'm not talking perfect...just confident in who he is since I know who I am.
As for the job front...slim pickings but I have been getting my resume out there. Going to have to send out more of the "dd" versions (dummy down) and remove some of my accomplishments but that's o.k. I know what I have accomplished and yet to accomplish. It doesn't really matter to me if others know. In fact sometimes I think it's good to just tell folks very little and see how they treat me not really knowing the full truth. That's when you get to see the "realness" in folks. The funny thing is I have met many people with lots of money and education and some of them I consider the most stupidest people in the world. Go figure. Some of them have so much yet don't realize they have so little. Personality really does count for something even for common folk like me. OK. It's late as usual. I better go but will check in tomorrow and get back to talking about world business.
