Oh What a Week

I spent just about all day watching Ted Kennedy's funeral mass and burial. What a long day it must be for his family. What a legacy he leaves behind. Always fighting for the underdog. May his soul rest in peace. How weird a day it is that today also would have been Michael Jackson's 51st birthday. I didn't go to the Spike Lee tribute in the park but I'm sure Richard will tell me all about it tomorrow. What a talented spirit he was also. I do believe though that even though his death was ruled a homicide, in the end, he himself aided in his demise. How unfortunate it must be to have so much fortune that you can virtually buy many doctors morality for drugs.

The cold that has seized my system for the last ten days seems to be winding down now. I think I have been able to cough up the disgusting, remaining bit of it. Still have a slight sore throat but feeling much better than last week. Yesterday I went for my dental check up. Was feeling kind of out of it and woke up saying to myself that I really needed a hug. When I got to the office, Althea welcomed me with a warm and genuine hug. She's so sweet. it's as if though she sensed I needed some kindness. It's far and few between that I get a hug. If I really think about it, really the only time I do get hugged is when I see Miriam or every once in a while seeing Lori. So many folks underestimate the power of a hug; simple touch. Sometimes watching, witnessing death that surrounds us makes me wonder if I'm not dead already and just merely a ghost in this version of the world. In a why many already treat me as if though I am not here. When I die I sometimes wonder if anyone will have known that I was here. Guess it really doesn't matter. We are all here until we no longer are.

I feel proud of a small accomplishment that is very visual down the block. I asked the local drug store to sell pink ribbon cards for the upcoming Strides event. I gave them 75 cards to start and in the span of four days, Tony was able to sell all 75 and it raised $91. The cards are proudly posted in the windows and it looks amazing. I can't tell you how special it feels to see many in the community take the time to spend a dollar or two to support. They took the time and it makes me feel honored that they did even if they don't know how or who is behind the cards. Nobody will know except for my supervisor when I turn in the money on Monday but I'll know and that makes me smile. While I will probably fail yet again at reaching goal on my Strides effort simply because I don't have a network of friends and supporters, it's good to know that in some small way I have succeeded towards the cause.

It was for the most part quiet this Saturday. I did take a hot shower and relax. Do wish I was out having fun but I didn't feel like being out alone again. Next week for sure I'll treat myself to something fun and interesting. Richard was really nice to treat me to a movie on Thursday. The movie (Adam) was really good. I want to get the soundtrack. OK...don't really feel like writing today but will tomorrow. I think I'll write Althea a note to mail on Monday. God answered my thought...I really needed that hug.